I Realized Something

I had forgotten that I wrote this. It's been over three months since I've looked at this or even thought about it. I guess I really was hurting and needed to vent. I don't remember feeling this bad though. I remember that I felt bad, but I didn't realize how deep of a depression I was in. I don't want to delete it because I belive that an artist or writer shouldn't throw away their works just because they don't like them. They might become important one day. I guess I'll post it.


I realized that I had known what was going to happen, but I wouldn't admit it. My subconscious self was protecting my conscious self from it. I had dreams that, if only I'd have thought about them, would've told me earlier. But I decided, it's best for me not to know yet. These sentences don't even make sense! I can't wait until this is over. I can't wait for this pain to be gone.